by Jessica Lundy
(USA Fl. Homo)
I cry myself to sleep because it's the only thing I can do right.
I avoid you because I would rather be alone.
I dress in black so I can be invisible at night.
I stay out late so I can avoid the fights at home.
I remain misunderstood because no one wants to understand me.
I play my music loud because I don't want anyone to hear me cry.
I rebel because nobody will let things be.
I make a scene so you will notice if I die.
I cut my wrist so I won't feel numb.
I sleep in late because I am afraid of the day.
I don't try because everyone just assumes I'm dumb.
I don't talk because I have nothing to say.
I guess I don't need to be understood; I'll be all right.
I just need you to leave me alone
Or I might crumble out there in the dark.