Best Friends or Lovers?
by adrianna
This guy and I have been best friends for about 3 years. We've always been really close until we both told each other how we really feel. He wanted to go out, but he wanted to tell people and I wanted to keep it a secret because our families would never let us alone if they knew. (Our families are very close.) We just decided to stay friends and I was fine with that because I had a boyfriend that I had been with for 6 months. But then he broke up with me. My friend and I were both single and this was during the summer so he'd come over and basically we cuddle and stuff and we'd kiss and makeout but never went further than that until one day we almost had sex. Since then our friendship has fallen apart. It seems like every time I feel like he wants to be with me, he shuts me down like I never meant shit to him. He plays mind games with me because one minute he acts like he cares, telling me he loves me and that he wont let me down but that's all he does and the next minute, he acts like he doesn't care about me at all. I'm tired of feeling like I'll never be good enough for him. He's the only guy I've ever wanted to be with and I love him more than anything in this world. I want to be with him more than anything, but I don't know what he feels because he never tells me. He always chooses every other girl over me and it really hurts. He doesn't really know how I feel because I've never told him. I know he loves and cares for me because he's always been there for me and always had my back and he's VERY overprotective. He tells me I'm beautiful and that he loves me but I just can't trust him anymore or believe anything he tells me because he lets me down constantly. It feels like my feelings never mattered to him and that one minute he wants me and a minute later, he doesn't. I just don't know what to do anymore. Can you PLEASE help me? Ask yourself the questions that will tell you if someone is right for you Click here to read or post comments. |