Blink Real Hard
by Dana Lynn Betts
(Browns Mills, NJ, 08015)
I have a black hole where my heart used to be.
And its sucking me up, it's literally killing me.
Where there should be an organ of joy, there's hate.
And it's for someone who is happy to whom I can't relate.
I thought that if I gave it my all, he would stay.
But I guess it wasn't enough, because like an unfaithful pup, he went astray.
I wasn't the right one, but I cannot blame myself.
Because I put my all into it, and he refused to help.
This hurts the most because I swore it would last.
But pretty much like everything, he is now a part of my past.
Was it someone else that made him want to leave.
Was it something hidden? Something I could not see.
I sit here and think of you, and you seem so far
Trying to block out the memory of you so I blink real hard.
Thinking that maybe if I shut my eyes tight enough, you will just disappear.
But with every other television show, and radio station, you simply reappear.
I blink like Im crazy, hoping that one day that this will just stop,
but I know that it's you who I'll always love, You are the memory I just cant drop.