Aw Leah, I do so feel for you. You see, I can relate to this big time! Even thought of doing something foolish.
Wonder if you feel about these things as I do; "You are where you are supposed to be." "Everything happens for a reason." NO, I do not believe these sayings.
Leah, I wish you the very best. I hope your life turns around for the best and that you can be happy again. Bobbie