Confused Heart!

I am absolutely falling for this one guy no doubt! I wish it wasn't true but it is and I fear that he will never like me! I dated him in like fifth grade and now I'm in 10th and I have really seen him like everywhere now this year!

He always looks up at the right moments and he always tries to act cool when I pass him while he's with his friends. He doesn't watch any other girls the way he watches me. It's like the chemistry never left us even after all of these years.

I'm confused because he is the guy and I expect him to make a move ... I am so shy and I could never bring myself to talk to him. It's not as easy as everyone thinks! I get such massive butterflies when he passes me and now I cry a lot because I'm confused that I like him so much ... it's crazy!

Every song makes me think of him ... and liking him hurts but I just can't seem to fall out of this crush! I have never ever felt this way before ... why does love hurt so much especially when you can't make a happy ending like in the stories?