Confused && Hurt

by Shirley
(Chicago, Illinois, United States)

I'm not sure if you can love some guy when you don't know him and have never talked to him, but I noticed this guy on the bus every day after school. His smile, his heart just touched me. At that point, I really didn't get what I was actually feeling, but I smiled & looked away. Ever since I noticed him, I started to think about him. His name was stuck in my mind, his face was stuck in my mind && his smile, ooh was it cute. The next day after school, I waited for him to get on the bus. Some days, he didn't show. Every time I didn't expect him to be there, he was there but when I expected him to be there, he didn't show up.

I was really confused at what I was feeling && doing. I asked myself, was I being stupid waiting for him like that? Is it worth waiting? I knew what the answer was——it was no, but ... I just knew I cared. It was really hard letting go when I knew deep inside my heart I was in love. Still, now, I am really confused because I don't know if I should still wait for him to give me an answer or not.

Love is All about suffering, waiting, pain, && depression...