confusion between two guys
by Arika Lama
i am confused between two guys and i don't know whom to choose, who is better for me? I have two boys in my life. First, there's my boyfriend, Shishir. We were dating since 3 years. We
used to love each other so much but due to his further studies he went abroad. Communication gap ruined every thing. I found him cheating with other girls on the net. He cheated me.
He said i love you to other girls. He gave me the explanation about everything. During those time i met another boy named Sazan. We became really a good friend. I started sharing every happy and sad things with him. I don't know what caught me
in i started liking him slowly. Love was there for the first boy but due to distance relationship it was decreasing due to his
behaviours. Second who was close with me, slowly became more closer. It may be infatuation or may be attraction but i started liking him. I broke up with Shishir and after some months i hooked up with Sazan.
I don't know what destiny want from me but after getting hooked up with Sazan, Shishir came back. After complete one year he urged me to meet. Don't know what drive me in. I went to meet him. I was happy meeting him but it was
frequently knocking me, why this happened. Why after all those thing he again came back. He asked me to patch up once again. Leave the second guy. But i just couldn't. Because i couldn't
be a cheater to second guy. When i needed him, i went him and again when Shishir came back i left him. Due to this dilemma i ignored the first guy.
But now I'm just in a trouble. I feel like i have a feelings for the first guy similarly i even have feeling for the second guy. What to do? I am total in dilemma. And the most important thing
of this topic, Sazan knows about my previous relationship. He don't like him at all. He simply hates me if i talk with the first guy. So he says me to ignore him completely but i just could
not ignore him. I know i love the second guy now but similarly i could not ignore the first guy even. What up with me i don't know. What my heart want i know. What to do?
Please do help me.