Death at Night
by Kyla Jo Ann Parras
(Hamilton County IL)
Sometimes I shatter
Sometimes I fall
But you were there for it all
I never thought losing you would hurt so bad
But you were all I had
Three fold tears hurt a lot
And you were apart of that spot
Some people are not worth losing
But I seem to have lost all of them
My heart keeps fraying more and more
And all I do is hit the floor
Who is going to pick me up this time?
Maybe you, maybe her, maybe him
But my light is more than dim
My light is out
My life is fading
And I'm done trying
Friends tell me it’s not worth it
But I want to try it
Leave this life and let them live
It’s hard to believe but all I want to do is forgive
Forgive them for trying
But my tears are not lying
My life is a spinning disaster
I can’t control it, it keeps spinning faster
I hear no more laughter only screams of pain
The weather is only rain
I think of the great times
But it never seems to be enough
I try not to cry, but I'm not that tough
Would anybody miss me?
I don’t think so
They never acted like they cared
I ran away to hide because I was so scared
They didn’t try to find me
I want to put the pain behind me
But my body is numb
And so is my heart
The roses are dead
They have fallen apart
Hitting the floor like I have
But it never seems to be enough
The cold chills and the tears
Are products of the fears
I want to be dead
To leave them from regret
I want this to be my lat day
I want them to stray away
To lose me from there memory
To let them live in harmony
But if I leave will it be a mistake
Make them see the life I want to take
The life of mine
Please don’t cry and don’t try to stop me
My heart is out on the table
My life is a lot less then stable
But times are changing
And my life is fading
Forget our laughs
Forget our love
Because with out them I am nothing
So I guess this is my last goodbye
Say hello to fate
And good night to grief
Let the bloody blades take over