Eloquent Affliction

by Marisa
(Michigan)

I'm flying through the snowy sky atop a paper airplane.
Catching every flake that whizzes past and numbs the pain.
Until i reach my destiny, this is where i reside.
For now my heart is lost at sea with misplaced sanity at its side.

The future has ventured so far away.
All my hopes and dreams have gone astray.
Just one more minute here with you
And I'll prove that true love has but one debut.

The feeling that only you can know-
The one that never began but continuously grows.
No need to speak, I read your mind.
Must I remind you? Our brains are intertwined.

There's no sight of civilization.
I'm left alone with this mysterious sensation.
A girl like me could do a lot of damage.
Free will alone is too much to manage.

Lost in my thoughts with no perception to spare.
Forever can be a long time adrift in the air.

The second my stability becomes just a crumb,
I begin to stumble on this free falling asylum.
I'm now two inches from my atrocious death.
I briskly spring up, attempting to catch my breath.

In bed, I lie awake at night.
I won't let myself believe that something isn't right.
I revisit my past and cringe at the thought.
Depression and self hate are things i should have fought.

History will not be repeated.
I won't give up and be defeated.
I will follow my heart, although my mind refuses,
And accept the fate my innocent soul chooses.