Falling for a Boy I Couldn't Have

by Courtney
(Mass)

I fell for this boy a while ago ... he's, well, a bad boy in a lot of people's eyes but I've come to really like him over the years.

Unfortunately, he said he didn't feel the same way about me. I was heartbroken and thought I would never love again and just wanted to forget him.

After 2 years of just being his friend, I thought that all my feelings for him would be gone. At that time, we were in 8th grade, about to move to 9th grade high school and I was happy to move on and meet more people and get to know more boys.

That Fall, I went to high school and ended up in some of his classes.

Now I'm in 10th grade in the same school as him, but I don't have any classes with him. I see him a lot and when I do, all my feelings return. I guess my love for him will never leave no matter what.

Every time I talk to a guy, I see him in that guy. It's crazy, but true. Why do I love him so much? He's a great person: funny, smart, kool and just plain great. I guess I fell too hard for him. I fell for his smile and his voice and every day, when I went to school, I looked forward to seeing him and hearing his voice.

When I was upset and down in the dirt, his smile would make my worries go away. It's like that saying, "A smile can help someone with all their worries." I guess his smile has helped me a lot.