falling in love with someone who can never be yours
by confius heart
well it's too difficult not only for her but also for me to admit that i love her...why? simply because i am and she is as well... i always asked myself before why it's difficult for me to have a relationship with a boy..my friends told me i am so choosy...well i admit i am..since i don't really know what i want.. the first time i saw her i didn't feel anything. i considered her as my superior...since she was my supervisor..she is always telling me that i am so simple and so afraid of exploring new things...she told me she believed in me...well i got so flattered at first since she was the only one who told me those words...until i cannot last the night working without seeing her... first i thought it was just a simple crush until i realized everyday I'm falling for her...i tried to summoned my feelings since i know myself and my preference,well maybe i don't like to have male companion but i am not "it" i always told myself those words...until one day she said goodbye...she told me all the things that i should do without her...she said she really value me however there are times that we need to part ways just to find ourselves..GOD KNOWS how i cried that time..seems like everything fall into pieces..i already admit to myself yes i love her..i even wrote her a farewell letter telling her how i love her but she just laugh thinking that i am just joking..but she told me if she is only single she will court me and we can be together..that's the most painful words I've ever heard from her..she left me..yes..whenever i looked at her sup pad i bursted into tears..she is my only inspiration but she left me.. i told my friend about it but she told me it's wrong to love her..but what can i do if my heart beats for her.. we never lose communication until now..we even planned for a date so many times thought 90% of those did not happen..when she was confined due to her diabetes i got so worried and went to the hospital just to see her with another girl..one of my friends told me that that girl is her second girlfriend but i did not believe..we still communicate until now and she even fetch me one time and we had breakfast..that's one of the happiest moment of my life i even pray for time to run so slow so that i can be with her for a long time..she never changed at all..same person i fell in love with..but i can't still tell her how much i long for her and how much i love her..until now i am still hoping that we can still be together though i know it's too impossible..but if that happens i will fight for her and tell the whole world that i lover her!! Get back the one you love |