95% similar story, except he was married and stuff & i didn't know i was gay or even that i loved him. i just acted and felt like i was in love without realizing it. i wouldn't accept myself nor my feelings. i felt like killing myself. we didn't keep our friendship. i decided to end it, as horrified as i was of loosing him. i didn't want to ruin his life.
the human mind has the amazing ability to heal itself. it tries to find a way to resolve conflicts in the best possible way. it's the only good adviser I've got.
it's not good to advise people on things such as this, but when you're in that kind of situation, a high dose of adrenalin helps - feeling an intense almost uncontrollable fear for your life. the higher the dose, the better the results. that's what helped me shake off the suicidal depression i had for months. it was killing me. i went bungee jumping from a bridge. :) even though the effect isn't permanent, it can give you a profound experience, feeling like you can find a way to deal with anything. if you imagine that life experiences are a liquid of emotions, each with different color, mixed together, that kind of adrenalin rush is like you pour another transparent liquid in to make the negative emotions more bearable.
Aug 08, 2010 Rating
The man i fell in love with by: Anonymous
I fell in love with my best friend and now our relationship is not the same anymore...We were so close! He loved me too. His friend (My brother) didn't like that the man i loved was his best friend too..So thats when he said he doesn't love me anymore.
But he still did he has told me before!
I miss the times we had together now we just don't talk like we used too :(
