forgetting

by Alicia

As I sit here and think of you
I remember what I've gone through...
the pain
the tears,
and the agony

You left my broken heart
lying here on the dirty ground. Barely beating, I'm hardly breathing.
I've tried to put it back together a 1000 times.
Why should I?
I'm already dying.

I hate you.
Yet still love you.
I'm so confused.
But in love.
My heart has been forever bruised
by those loving words you once told me.
As I sit up in the middle of the night thinking of you, my memories keep coming back
like a continuous heart attack.

Floods of tears in my eyes begin to form throughout the crevasses in each eye as I wonder why I bother loving you.

Yet I still do.

This endless cycle, which invades my life and my every thought.

Soon I'll forget.
Forget all the
pain,
tears,
and agony you brought in my life.

I'll forget the absurd way you lied and said you'd never leave. I'll forget all the love you said you had for me.
I'll forget everything that has to do with you.

I will finally move on with my life and just...

Forget.

Even though I love you, I will never love again the way I LOVED you.

I wish I didn't have to forget.