get a grip

by Evie
(Florida)

You're falling
Falling faster
Falling deeper...in love.
Get a grip
He doesn't love you
Get a grip
He doesn't care for you...
You stroke the knife in your hand
You stare at the razor hard
You think about how life has treated you
You hate it...
What have you got to lose?
What have you got to live for?
You ask yourself if anyone would notice you were gone
Of course you know the answer.
You walk over to the mirror.
You can hardly look at your reflection.
You want to bleed
You want to feel the pain
Get a grip
You want it
Get a grip
You need it
You can hear your heart thumping in your chest
You can feel the tears running down your cheek.
You get a second thought on the whole thing
No ... You need this
You grab the razor
Next thing you know...
Warm, red blood is dripping down your arm.
You start to laugh.
All of a sudden you can't catch your breath.
It's over
You did it.
But you lost your grip...