Good Bye

by Debbie-Anne Hicks
(London)

I feel so hurt,
I feel so sad,
But the weird thing is,
I am not mad,
I may not be mad,
But I am upset,
I feel as if I want to cry all the time,
But I can’t.

Someone pinch me,
Am I in a dream?
Or a bad nightmare?
Is this reality?
People get hurt all the time,
But there is no pain worse than this,
All you ever did was diss,
You dissed me all the time,
Not intentionally,
It hurt me so much though,
And that’s when I realised I had to go,
It took me along time to figure it out.

I put my self through it all,
You always made threats,
And I always crawled back,
And when I brought myself to say goodbye,
It was you who crawled,
But I didn’t feel for you anymore,
You made me feel so guilty,
You made it feel as if it was my fault.

But it never was,
It was always you,
And I didn’t know what to do,
Or what to say,
You killed a big part of my life,
You ripped out my heart,
And tore it in two using our relationship like a knife.

I finally said good bye,
For the very last time,
And now you are no longer mine,
I am not yours,
I don’t love you anymore,
You wore my love out,
You took it for granted,
I am gone,
And I am not coming back,
Ever.
You said those words,
And made me cry,
This is the last ever time I will say:
Good bye.