He Broke Me
by Demetria Maria
(Pittsburgh)
First time he loved me,
I was in love.
We were in love.
Feelings that I've never felt.
He made my heart swoon,
The adrenalin rush,
Of seeing that face,
Made me fall hard.
But I didn't care.
Dreams.
We got higher and higher.
He played it and i had those dreams,
Of being together,
Of staring into those beautiful dark brown eyes,
Of kissing him so soft and gentle,
Of staying so close to him,
I could hear and feel,
that drumming heartbeat,
Exactly similar to how he played.
In my dreams.
First person that loved me.
Dreams were coming true,
For one day.
He changed his mind.
He took my love,
To make his heart come alive.
Forever.
I wanted him and still do.
Forever,
The rush of a thousand heartbreaks,
Stuck in the back of my mind,
Like a red hot iron scar,
Like a razorblade cut,
Of his name across my heart,
Forever.
I cried so hard for so long,
And he won't get to see the tears I cry,
Behind my hazel eyes.
And he doesn't know that I nearly died.
And he still doesn't know,
What I feel inside.
And he never will.
But does he think of me,
When he's awake in bed,
When he hears my favorite song,
When he sees me hug another guy?
Does he know how bad he hurt me?
Does he know that emotional pain that I have to suffer?
As far as I know,
No.
I loved him,
He loved me,
And then he didn't.
He broke my heart.
He broke my dreams.
He broke me.
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