Heart-Broken Too Many Times

by unknown
(unknown)

There are times that I sit thinking about you.
I know that it is very hard to let things go.
I try so hard to move on, but it never seems to work.

There is this guy and his name is Austin.
I have liked him since the beginning of 7th grade and
I never thought that he noticed me.
It's been a while since then, at this point I have been in love with him for 3 years.
He's left me broken too many times. The only thing keeping me here is the thought of all the times that we've had together.
The short version is that we went out for like a month in the 8th grade and he broke up with me because I wouldn't kiss him.
It was because his friend kept spying on us and I saw him and turned my head.
He broke up with me and turned everyone at school and church against me.
I've cried so many times over him and then that year, I moved to another school and he kept talking to me and then quit. He did that a lot but one time, he actually told me that he's liked me since the beginning of the 7th grade too and that he loved me too. Well I was really happy but then he left me again and quit talking to me.
It left me so broken, I felt like I didn't want to be here anymore and he knows how much I loved him and now he is yet again trying to be with me, but the truth is now I have a boyfriend who I really like and I am confused because I don't know if he's serious or not. It leaves me broken and torn. I don't even want to think about it.