Hearts are Broken for Words Unspoken

by J. Harris
(NZ)

Hearts Are Broken For Words Unspoken

It was in the first year of high school. I met the love of my life, his name was John Thompson. I had a crush on him for a while and didn't think it was that serious, but then the months went on and I mailed him, telling him I loved him and that I wanted to be with him. It wasn't until a month later I got a reply from him saying that he didn't love me and he would never love me. That really broke my heart, but I got over it even though I was still in love with him.

I wanted to tell him I loved him and wanted to be with him so much, but I couldn't risk it. I couldn't let my heart get broken so O just left it. Then one day, I found the courage inside of me to finally stand up and say what I had to say to him, and he was just shocked that I loved him so much, so he agreed to be my boyfriend.

The years went by and we were still together and still going strong. It was graduation year. Then I started to get ill and didn't think much of it. When I got very sick, I went to the doctor and had some tests done.

A few day's went by and the doctor rang me and told me he had to see me urgently, so I went to him and got the most shocking news of my life: he said I was suffering from cancer and only had a year to live.

I was very sad and didn't want to hurt John, so I told him that things weren't working between us. He finally accepted it, and even though it hurt to do this, I was still deeply in love with him.

A few months went by and John found love again, Her name was Jasmine, and I was heartbroken. Then one day, one of my friends had told me that John had proposed to Jasmine on her birthday.

When I saw John out of the corner of my eye, tears just started dripping down my cheeks and I couldn't stand it anymore, I had to tell him the truth, so I invited him over to my house. He turned up at 7:30 pm on a Thursday night. I told him to make himself comfortable, then I sat down and dropped him hints about why I broke up with him and finally the truth came out.

He just didn't believe the words that were coming out of my mouth, so he just stood and left without a word. A few days passed, and still I never heard from him, so I rang him and left a message on his answer phone, saying I only had 2 more months to go. I heard that he was married, so I left to be with my family.

I thought he just didn't care so I tried to forget about him, but couldn't stop thinking about what he was doing or if I would ever see him again.

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This was the last thing that Chloe wrote. She died on the 12/11/2009.

This is John and I found Chloe's diary and read the whole thing.

I loved Chloe with all my heart. That's why I had to do this. Hearts are broken for words unspoken.