He's Gone?!

by Taylor
(Wisconsin)

So there is this boy. We started off being best friends like 3 years ago. And every school year we get closer and closer. Then my sophomore year in high school, he hooked me up with one of his best friends and then he never talked to me again until almost a year later when he heard that I was going to break up with my boyfriend (the one he hooked me up with).

We started talking and hanging out a lot (basically like we were dating). He told me that he really liked me and then I instantly realized that I had liked him since I met him—I just never thought he was an option because we were such good friends. So we decided we would date but not yet since I had just broken up with my boyfriend.

When I finally thought I had enough time to get over my ex, this boy told me he just wanted to be friends. That hurt, but we stayed the same (acting like we were dating and we just technically weren't). Then he got drunk one night and called me begging for another chance because he really liked me and he made a mistake.

A few days later we started dating. We had so much fun! for a whole 2 WEEKS until we got drunk and started fighting about stupid stuff and we broke up. The next morning, I didn't completely remember it all, so I figured we would get back together since it was just a drunken fight.

But he didn't want me back. I had no idea what I did to make him mad and all he would tell me was that he didn't want a girlfriend because they were too controlling.

Weeks went by without us talking at all. I was drunk most of the time because that was the only thing that made me feel better, so I could sleep at night.

Me and one of my best friends decided to window marker his car to make him mad. Then I had sex with a random guy just to piss off again (and I am not the kind of girl to have sex with someone I am not dating, and I never had sex with my ex), so it worked.

He was so mad and upset, we started yelling at each other, but it eventually ended up as talking. He told me that he did like me, he just didn't want a girlfriend and that if I wanted sex I could have just asked him because he has wanted me since we met 3 years ago. And the stupid girl I am... I ended up meeting him somewhere, so we could have sex. It was perfect, I really liked him and I thought he felt the same way. So our new status was "friends with benefits." I was happy again. We talked all the time, had sex occasionally. Everyone knew and nobody cared because they all knew we really had a thing for each other. Then another drunken night, I was taking care of his drunk ass because he drank way too much! Then he passed out so I was talking to other people. Then everyone went home except me and my ex and his bestfriend because we were staying the night. The 2 guys got in a fight over me because I guess they both wanted to have sex with me that night. Then they both wanted to leave and I wouldn't let either of them drive, so my ex called one of his friends and they picked him up and took him home, leaving just me and his best friend there alone. Nothing happened, but we slept in the same bed. And we both still get shit about it. But that marked the end of my "friends with benefits" (sometimes I wish I would have just had sex with him that night because it would have made things so much better). We got in a huge fight outside of school a few days after that and he stood there as I did a burn out leaving the parking lot (all he did was laugh). After that we stopped talking again. Every once and awhile, one of us will realize we miss how we were, so we text each other and start talking. Then one of us gets mad and we stop. I was the last one to do that and it was a huge mistake! I got so drunk one Thursday night I texted him and told him how much i loved him and that I wanted him back and I couldn't go on without him. All he told me was that he didn't want a girlfriend. I woke up the next morning not completely sure what I did. He is in my first hour class and all he did was laugh at me and tell most of class what I sent him. I left the class in tears. Then he brought a girl I hate to lunch with him just to piss me off. So finally last night I called him and told him I was done. I wanted nothing to do with him anymore because I was just getting hurt over and over again! he told me fine and we hung up. So now I am laying in bed, skipping school, just so I don't have to see him. I don't even want to get over him... I just want him back. Get back the love of your life Click here to post comments. Join in and write your own page! It's easy to do. How? Simply click here to return to Sad Love Crush Quotes. Copyright 2001-2012 All Rights Reserved. (Excluding Cited Quotations and Poems) Love-Quotes-and-Quotations.com "Love Quotes to Inspire and Enlighten You"