"hi" 2 the next year...
by Anna
During our second semester, my friends became Lo***'s seatmates. After some time, they had a crush on him and so did my close friend who was somehow making me think "whaaaat?". Then after some time, my friends' (his seatmates) crush on him got away but I guess my close friend's hasn't. When 2 or more people (who were our friends) knew about her crush, they would giggle or whatever and I would do the same too. Not that I'm slightly jealous or anything but it's just that I feel awkward. Then acting as intrigued as the others, they/we would ask "really"? or if I asked her I'd said "Do you still like him?" and she would be like "Nah. Not really. Probably just a bit.". Alright. I admit it. I haven't forgotten about it completely. The sad or catching-my-attention thing is that I feel like he knows about her crush or probably the thing that he talks more to her and goes more to her. And sometimes they'd even whisper whatever funny stuff about our class' most-refused-person. Currently (2008), he even sends a message on IM which catches my attention. And also, we had a short game like "the boat is sinking". First into 7 then into 4 and then to whatever...then to 2. We weren't allowed to have a same gender partner which means we have to pair with a boy. My girl partner seconds ago was taken by the other boy and that other boy's partner who happens to be him paired with me which made me feel happy (at last). My other friend, his other seatmate before, asked me something. She wrote it on a paper (so no one would see). Did you really have a crush on him? And I told her just last year. She asked again "how 'bout now?" "No". When I asked her why, she said someone asked my close friend to ask me. I felt that it wasn't asked by another person I don't know. This is really making me confused. Confused if I still really like him or if I even want to think about that.... |