How Can I Move On?

by Maddie
(Taiwan)

We weren't really dating when he suddenly posts a goodbye message to me on Facebook. He got hurt because on the day that he was in trouble I did not bother to text or call to ask how he was doing. But the thing is, the night before, he got mad at me and we fought. The week before, he told me that I shouldn't talk to him until a certain date. Naturally, I followed through because he explained that he needed some time.

During the span of our not talking to each other, he kept sending these group messages through text. Group messages happen when one message is sent to a group of people.

His first message was about him moving on. Then the next few were about him saying things about the importance of moving on when there's nothing else to hold on to. Then the following ones were more of him becoming the victim and that he was doing all the effort of "saving" the relationship when he really didn't do anything. At all. Then the ones that came after that were suddenly about what happened NOT BEING ANYONE'S FAULT. He said things just wouldn't work. Then his last ones were about him loving someone who was no longer in his life.

Now, I don't really know if he was talking about me. After all, they were group messages and it could be any girl. But I felt it was about me. And frankly, I don't understand why he kept sending group messages (like every other night) if he was "moving on."

I try to move on but it's really hard because every time I am ready to take that step forward, suddenly, his group text just beeps in and sends me back again.

I admit, I still like the guy. He's my classmate and all I can do is ignore him when he's there. But even I can't help it sometimes when my eyes just fall on his back or something.

I really don't know how to move on. How do you move on when the person is your classmate? You see him everyday...and then, at night, he sends all these texts..and when you try and tell him to stop, he's just going to be all ego and proud saying things like, "You didn't raise me, what right do you have to dictate what I can't and can do?"

I am stuck. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say, how to think, how to move on. I feel he's looking at me sometimes. But that could just be paranoia. But my friends say he is looking at me.

I think I could move on faster if we weren't classmates or he didn't send group texts or he explained why he broke it off. Seriously, I have no clue. I can't pinpoint the thing that's made him angry.

What am I going to do? How can I move on?