I don't want to care but I do

by Arianna
(Margate, FL)

My ex and I have been broken up for a year now because he told me he wasn't "attracted" to me any more. We used to work at the same place, where I got him hired. However not even a month later he starts going out with our supervisor and then six months down the line after we broke up, I got "fired" -- the reason is still news to me.

I have learned to forgive him and learn from our mistakes but just haven't gotten the urge to start dating again. He recently broke up with his girlfriend and he called me to apologize about the break up and that she was more of a lust thing. He told me what went wrong and that she would never be me.

I want to just tell him tough luck and act as though I don't care, but I do. I honestly don't want to but my heart feels for him.

Is ok that I feel that way and that I still care for him? I don't know what to do/think? Sorry I kinda ran off the subject its more detailed and theres' a whole lot more than what I'm telling you, I'm just trying to summarize as much as I can.

Please help.