i got crushed by my crush

by crushed
(united states)

okay, so i like this guy and i honestly thought that he was kinda maybe just a little bit into me, because the things he would do. anyways for like 2 months i thought that he might actually get the courage and ask me out,although i think this was most likely going on in my head. I also used to like him last year, but then he got a gf, when that happened i tried to move on,and forget which seemed to work until this year when i got him in a class and he sat next to me. for a whole semester which is when i started to think he liked me. I sent him a friend request over myspace and he accepted it, i was overjoyed. then reality hit me while i was "visiting" his profile i noticed that his ex was the first one in his "top friends" and before she wasn't... that is when i realized that he was going out with her. i still tried to keep an optimistic attitude and was going to wait until the next day to see if they were going out the next day when i saw them holding hands walking in the hallway...i felt like needles where stabbing into my heart and a big lump in my throat that would not allow me to swallow. I wanted to kneel to my knees and...just cry,now i am starting to get over the idea of them going out, but it still hurts me to see them together. Today was the last day of school and the last day i saw him....i can't help but keep thinking about him and people might thing I'm being melodramatic, but honestly if you knew him,you would know exactly what i'm talking about. he is the only guy i know in my school that is not a jerk. but now i'm sitting here wishing that girl in his arms was me...