I learned my lesson a little too late.
by Miranda M
always fighting for something that seemed to already be gone? Every other week you tell me how much you hated me, how I was not the one, how you always said we were done, you would threaten to go out and find someone new, that I no longer was the girl for you. Then two days later you're begging to have me back, telling me I was the girl of your dreams, buying me pretty things to blind me from the facts. You didn’t love me nor did you care, because you’re the reason my tear drops continue falling everywhere. For some reason I think you found this fun building me up, just to tear me down, but then again I allowed it to happen more then once, more then twice, At some point it had to stop, my life had disappeared. My friends support me but even they could see something that took me so long to believe. I made the distance I tried to get away, but something always pulls me back no matter how hard I try, I did this to myself there were so many signs but I continued to let it go on for almost a year of my life, so I can only blame myself for being young and in love, I learned a lesson a little too late. Never allow somebody to mentally degrade, it’s never alright, it’s never okay, and the pain is something that will never go away, if I could have only been smarter to get out then maybe my life wouldn’t be here and I wouldn’t live in so much doubt. He tore me down just to build me up, my tears were his victory, breaking my heart was the trophy, but me getting myself back is all that matters in the end, My heart will learn to mend, I will move on and continue to grow this experience is just something that happened and now I know.... |