I lie in bed and think...

Sometimes I just lie in bed and think
I don't know what I think about, I just think
I guess it all varies and depends-
How I'm feeling
What happened that day
And so on
But, somehow, it all leads down to one thing:
Life
Not just like in general, but all of it
All the 'what if's?', but's, and and's
All the "I wishes," and "I wants"
All the feelings and emotions and sensations and desires
Come crashing in on me all at one moment
That I think I might explode
So I do
I cry
I cry over everything and then some
For the lost, the helpless, and myself
What a selfish person I am
Can't even cry for those who really need it.