I love him,but i have moved on with life.
by Meenakshi Das
I was dating this guy for 3 years. For the first year, he was the most ideal person but gradually he changed. He became rude in his approach. I convinced myself by thinking that his change is due to his profession..I was still there.
I changed my lifestyle for him. I was a part of his friends and family, as much as he was himself.
But everything started to change when he slapped me. And few weeks later he wanted to break up, which eventually landed up being a weeks break. And after that he was all fine. But i started to change.
I in-spite of having him in myself, I had a fling with another guy. Which was not acpectable and wrong on my part. But that finally ended.
Finally i shifted to the city where he is based for couple of months for this professional course. Going there, i realized i had lost on many things in life and i started leading it the way i wanted to.
We started going through bad phases and that's when i met someone else and got involved. We broke up, he got to know about my present guy. He told his family back home about me moving on and gradually they started hating me.
The problem lies that i still love him and he loves me too. The reason i am with my present guy is because he's a very nice person and keeps me really happy. No drawbacks in him. Makes me feel like a princess which all lacked with my X-bf.
But i still love my X-bf and he has recently broken connection with me. I have moved back to my own city now, away from both of them.
I sometimes want to be stupid and i want everything to be back to normal with my X knowing the fact for few initially days everything would be good, but later it would be back to square one. Fights,abusing each other etc etc.and i know i won't be treated so well as i am currently and nor will i be given enough liberty.
what do i do? should i get back? if yes, then how do i get him back? i know he still loves me a lot but hates me for the fact that i had moved on.
I am confused,depressed and life seems impossible.