"I Love you"

by K.me
(Japan)

He was a close friend of mine since grade school. This boy was a heartthrob and every girl's crush in school. He's got chinito (chinese-like)eyes and he seems to be perfect. We are really good friends because we've been classmates like for life until high school.

Then this day came, it was December, a day before our Christmas party. Everyone was excited to receive gifts and everyone was talking about it. We chatted on Facebook and I asked him,"Hey, what do you want this Christmas?",he replied,"you". I was shocked and I didn't know what to feel, whether i'd be happy, blushing or I dunno. Funny I thought I would ride on to his joke, so I sent him,"This Christmas I also want you".

After that he said he would already sign out, THEN SUDDENLY I SAW HE'S LAST CHAT MESSAGE SAYING, "I love you". Damn, i felt overjoyed but I ignored it at first coz I haven't felt a spark he's not even my uber crush. The following day I sent him a message:"Hey why did you sign out if you wanted to say that?",then he replied,"I was shy". In school I didn't even bother to ask him coz maybe he'll just laugh at me. I just continued living everyday in school like it never happened.

Days, months went by, still we were classmates during our 3rd year in High school. I couldn't forget those words I swear to the Eiffel Tower, sometimes it would make me come to think if it was true or it was just a nasty joke. He was really cute as I realized, he had the cutest smile. He was sweet, kind and gentle but sometimes a boy filled with humor. And that's what I find in a guy. Here it comes, I FELL FOR HIM.

He had a bestfriend that was also my close friend and I shared it to him, coz I wanted to hear his opinion about what his friend said. He said that he really don't have an idea about it and he promised he'll never spill it.

Everyday I'd love to see him smile and look at me like nobody's around. And I felt deeper and deeper for him. One day in October, he sat at an emptied seat of an absent classmate, the seat was just on my back and he sat beside my best friend. She asked him about having said those words to any girl and chat and signed out soon after, the worst is, HE SAID HE NEVER HAVE DONE THAT OR HE COULDN'T REMEMBER TO WHOM OR IF HE REALLY SAID IT.

After everything was done at school,I went home, got inside of the bathroom and cried. I did not know why I cried, I couldn't explain. I was inlove, there was I then he left me on air hanging.

I'm sad of yet another story of my life that ended not a happily ever after but I BELIEVE THEY'RD BE A HAPPY ENDING FOR ME, AND FOR EVERYBODY. Even though, I still would continue to love and be loved.