I Still Love You

by Maria
(California)

Young But In LOVE

I went out with my ex boyfriend for 2 years and he was my first love. He was my current boyfriend's best friend at the time, he was not only his friend but a friend to me, he was always there for me when I needed to talk to him about my problems. We started dating in October 2007 and I felt like it was right and I felt so happy...I felt loved for the first time.

Even though we were caught up in a lot of drama, we felt great around each other. When we had been together 8 months, I found out he was moving out of California and leaving to Kentucky because of his family he had no choice.

It was the worst news never but he decided that we should keep dating, that he was going to make it work. At the very beginning when he left, we would call each other every day after school and we'd even write each other letters, but then little by little everything started changing. He was hearing things about me and we barely even talked on the phone.

I started feeling like I was going to lose him and I didn't want that to happen. I felt like I was going to be a wreck without him. Days went by and it seemed like a game for him. He told me he went out with friends and girls were there. I don't know if he would do that on purpose.


We kept talking and our relationship started working after our 1st break-up. then after we were together again everything changed when I started noticing that he was distant. He didn't want to spend a lot of time on the phone and when we were on the phone, he'd say he had to go play football and he'll call me later and he never did. Days went by and he wouldn't even call or text me, so I got fed up with it and broke up with him.

It is such a difficult situation because I still love him so much and I really miss him, but on the other hand, he can't even say if he loves me. He can only say thank you and I'll never forget you. One week ago, I found out he had a new girl in his life. I felt like dying inside

Now he wants to only be my friend and I don't know if I should accept that when I know I still feel something strong for him...any advice?

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