I Thought He Liked Me

by a girl
(a place)

I have this great guy friend. He's absolutely handsome, fun to be around, funny, has a cute childish laugh that is almost contagious, athletic, honest (or so he says), keeps most promises, annd I think I love him.

One day he put his telephone number in my phone. I have texted him since. Everyday. Rarely are there days I don't.

He was going out with this girl, which he does because he's not not exactly inexperienced, but he'd flirt via text and sometimes in person too. He'd say you're nice, you're beautiful, gorgeous, generous, pretty, and a lot of nice or almost risky things to me, even though he was dating someone else.

Finally, I told him how I feel. At the time, I didn't know that he'd just broken up with his girlfriend. She screwed him over.

So he tells me about and says he's not looking for someone to like. That he doesn't wanna get screwed over again. This comes from the guy who said I was generous, beautiful, pretty, cute, that he'd carry me home if I hurt my ankle, that he'd give me a massage when my back hurt and so many other things like that!

So my cousin asks him if he likes me. He says as a friend. She asks why? He says does a bad breakup count?

My question is why would you need to ask if that was a good reason. Do you think he actually likes me? The guy who has listened to all my hardships? The one I tell almost everything? The one I told my Biggest secret to?

I feel as though I am conflicted to no end, my world has crashed and I put myself out there, expecting to be caught but only to fall in my own embarrassment.

He says he did not know I liked him. That he felt bad for making me sad, but how could he not tell.

I was giddy and upbeat most times with him as he put it. My face was completely red when just talking to him or even about him!

*Sigh* So here I am. Still single. Still hung up on him and conflicted to no end. Sappily ever after.

P.S. Watching "He's just not that into you" did and did not help.