I want him back

I am only in eighth grade, don't stop reading yet. In my beliefs there is such thing as love; everyone says 'oh you're only in eighth grade you don't know what love is.' I do.

Me and my boyfriend went out for about 5 months, he always said he loved me but we didn't hang out a lot, we had nowhere to hang out. There was a point where I hadn't seen him in a month, I told him that I was thinking about breaking up with him because I miss him. When I asked this I wasn't looking for an actual break up; I just wanted his opinion on us breaking up. His response was 'please don't, I love you'. As stupid as I am I believed it. We just kept talking on the phone every night or so than one night I texted him 'hey' and he responded 'how is your other boyfriend?'

I was confused but I'm the joking type so I said 'oh he's good'. No response, so I texted again 'I'm kidding'. He didn't believe me. I called him later and we talked about it and he told me he didn't have feelings for me like he used to and he didn't for a month....this was a week after I asked his opinion on breaking up. I asked him if he lied he said no he really did love me so what was I supposed to think?

I cried forever. It is now a month after the break up and I can honestly say I still love him I am scared to text him cause I don't want him to think I'm annoying and a stalker so I joke around with him and give him clues that I still like him, but nothing. I don't want to think it but my friends tell me I'm obsessed.