if you love someone don't let them go
by emily lopez
about a year ago i liked this boy named raul and he had a gf, but my friends told me that he liked me too. but he was confusing because he didn't know what he wanted. so after some time i stopped liking him. but there was this guy benny in my class and i never noticed him until my friend said he was cute and she liked him. so i tried to get them together and my other friend helped, but i guess he was just trying to be nice so he didn't tell her that he didn't have feelings for her. a few weeks later my friend stopped liking him and then told me that i should try to get at him and i said why? that's not right. and she told me it's okay and said that we would make a cute couple. so me him and 2 other friends were paired up to do this project and me and him would always sit together and we would talk, and he was so funny. and i got to know him and i liked him. so after i liked him i would always get shy when he tried to talk to me. i thought he didn't like me because this girl would always flirt with him so i would be so sad, but i would always text him. and one day he told me that he was thinking about me and so many stuff. it was awkward at school and we would have so many things in common. i tried to stop liking him but it was so hard. he would always get in trouble so he got expelled but it wasn't that bad for me because he lived 2 blocks from me so i would see him sometimes in the streets. the last time i saw him was the day of my birthday. i still thought he lived by me until my friend told me he moved houses really far away from me. i was sad and then i asked my friend for his house number because his cellphone got disconnected. i would call him and talk to him for 4 hours straight and he would call me at 1 in the morning to talk. he would always ask me to hang out with him but i couldn't. he would tell me that he wanted to see me and i would tell him that too. time passed by and he stopped calling me so i was like okay, so i called him and it turned out that his phone was disconnected! a month ago his friend roman came to my school and i was excited because i thouqht that benny was with him but he wasn't. and he told me that he is in texas and that he is trying to get a car over here. when i heard that i felt like someone just punched a whole through my chest. texas is too far from san diego! i still like him and it's been 7 months that i haven't seen him and it hurts too much! and now i just regret not talking to him and being too stupid for letting him go because i now know that he really liked me ! |