I'll be with you.

by Emily
(Laguna Beach)

So I'm not going to tell names or anything like that, cause I don't want anyone knowing who I am. It was summer 07 and I met this guy. this truly, AMAZING guy. I had known him before and stuff and we were kind of friends but more like acquaintances. He had a girlfriend of 2 years who he seemed to love a lot. But one day, me and him and some other people all hung out at our friend's house. I had never thought of him that way, I was actually there for another guy. As I was leaving he said "hey, what's your number? I'll text you later or sumthin" so of course I gave it to him.

That night he texted me and we talked for hours and hours. Well we kept texting the next couple days and then one day he told me he was going over to his friend's house to stay the night, and his friend happens to live right across the street from me. Soo.. I had a friend over too, so we both walked across the street to his friend's house and they both came outside and we just stayed out there from like 5 pm to like 2 am. just talking, laughing, and ya know having fun. We laid on his friend's driveway and looked at the stars and stuff and it was so incredible. I fell in love with them that night. When I finally went inside my house, he kept texting me and stuff, and finally, he told me he liked me a lot.

The next day me and some friends were leaving for Disneyworld, so he came over at 7:30 A.M. just to be with me before I left. He went home as I finished packing my things and as we were leaving we drove by his friends house and he came outside and said goodbye. I texted him and was like "that was pretty pointless" and he said "I just wanted to see your beautiful face since you're going to be gone. I'm gonna miss you" after that i knew I was like so in love with him.

He texted and called me everyday when I was in Disney World and then one day he called and told me he had broken up with his girlfriend for me. I was overjoyed. We kept texting and talking and hanging out those next couple weeks and every Monday we would go out to the club and dance and hang out and stuff.

One day he got really mad at me because I was going to the club when he wasn't,and i didn't dance with any other guys or anything the whole time cause i was so upset thinking he was mad at me. well when I got home there was a message from him saying "I'm sorry I got mad at you earlier baby ... I love you so much and I can't wait... will you go out with me?" I was so happy, I said yes! we dated for a couple months and hung out all the time and everything was great, we were falling further and further in love.

But then we woke up to find out that summer was almost gone. (I know these are song lyrics from Tim McGraw by Taylor Swift but that's really what happened). He was going to high school and I would still be in middle school, and we knew it would never work. I was so sad and I cried for days straight non-stop. I could never quit thinking about him, never. there wasn't a moment that went by when he wasn't in the back of my head, but when he broke up with me he said these words "Baby I've been thinkin a lot. I love you so much, but it's time to move on. I'm going to high school and we'll never see each other.. but just know that I will always love you, I'll always miss you and I will ALWAYS be with you." I cried and cried and cried but deep down i knew it was for the best.

We didn't talk much at all after that, and now he has a girlfriend of 7 months that he loves deeply. We're kind of friends...but it's just so hard to be friends with him knowing everything that happened that summer. I still love him more than anything. He's the only guy I've ever been IN love with. Every now and then I do still think about him, but I make it through the days. Sure I've dated tons of other guys since then but I compare every one of them to him. I just want to thank him for showing me what love really is, and even though I'm young...I DO know what it is.

Love doesn't have an age limit. He taught me that. he understood me when i didn't understand myself and he always helped me when I didn't know what to do. He taught me how to be the best person I can be, and for that I thank him. He'll always be in my heart... and I'll love him forever and not a day less.

To him- I love you so much. I know we're not together now but... I'll be with you one day.