I'm Done Pretending

by Laci
(Newalla, Oklahoma)

i'm here pretending it doesn't bother me
that she has everything i want
and everything i can't seem to have
what does she have what i don't?
you may not know how much i love you
or how much you mean to me
but baby, you're my everything
but what's the point of trying
when all you'll do is hurt me.
i want to be in your arms
oh, what i'd do
to hear you say
"i love you too"
i would have the world
if only i had you
i wish you could see me
instead of acting like i'm invisible
i guess things will never change..
you see right through me
i'm so in love with you
you just won't give us a chance
to see where this thing could go
or to see if you feel the same
i think about you day and night
about how i'm not good enough
and why you chose her over me..
i can't take it.
i'm done pretending
and acting like i don't care
so i'm gonna tell you my feelings
and show you how i feel.
..
wow, so now you see me
as i'm slowly slipping away
from this place
do you see what you're doing to me?
all the words left unspoken
would've been nice to hear
but it's too late now
as i start to disappear.
it took this long to get your attention
but now we'll never get a chance
to see where we could've ended up
cause i'm done with all the pain,
i'm letting everything go.
as you tell me how i feel
the blade goes deeper
why you hold onto your feelings so long
because now its too late.
i'm leaving this world,
letting it all go
i can't keep acting like this
and not letting my feelings show
i would've given us a chance
but i couldn't take the intolerance
and the falseness
of a fake relation
so as i take my leave now
there's one last thing i want you to hear:
if you ever need to talk
just bow your head and let go.
cause i'll always be here for you..
i just wanted you to know.