I'm Losing You
by HINAYUPAKS
You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you may never get it back. My heart was taken by you...broken by you and now it is in pieces because of you. Love is like falling down...in the end you're left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever. You're the one who broke my heart, you're the reason my world fell apart, you're the one who made me cry, yet I'm still in love with you and I don't know why. A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried, neither would a million tears, I know I've cried. Wanting you is hard to forget, loving you is hard to regret, losing you is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet. Sometimes the memories are worth the pain. Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye. You are afraid to care too much. People think it is holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go. You made a choice to finally let go, because you can't stand the pain, it's time for your last tear to fall so you can smile again. You cried today...not because you miss me or even want me, but because you realized that you're going to be all right without me. The hardest thing about growing up is that you have to do what is right for you even if it means breaking someone's heart, including your own. Of course, you're going to get your heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up. I'm so disappointed. Maybe we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever. Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I don't have. There were reasons we met, reasons for the good times and reasons for the bad times, and most importantly, a reason to end. We have more to learn, more to experience and more loving to do in this lifetime. Somehow I know we'll meet again, not quite sure where and not sure when, but you're in my heart forever. Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow; we must fail in order to know. Sometimes our vision only clears after our eyes are washed clean with tears. I'm not afraid of heights, I'm afraid of falling. I'm not scared of the dark, I'm scared of what's in it. I'm not afraid of love, I'm afraid of not being loved back. It's really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don't want to let go, but its even more painful to ask someone to stay if they don't want to. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go. You didn't intentionally break my heart, you even said you were sorry, but I cried anyway. My heart has so many scars and bruises all over it. I don't know how much just one heart can take and I don't really want to find out either. Don't hate me. Don't regret me. Don't even forget me. Where ever you go, whatever you do, don't say I never loved you. I haven't been around but that doesn't mean I've stopped loving you. I never stopped loving you. Even when I was acting crazy, I loved you. I've tried to show you in a million ways but nothing ever got through. Do you want to know what my problem is? I will tell you what my problem is, I LOVE YOU. I love your name, I love the way you look at me, I love your gorgeous smile, I love the way you walk, I love your beautiful eyes, I love what you look like when you are asleep. I love the sound of your laugh, to hear your voice fills my heart with an indescribable feeling. I love the way I can be having the worst day of my life and seeing you completely changes my mood. I love how when you touch me, I get weak. That is my problem... I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end. Click here to read or post comments. |