i'm sorry and forever will be.

by average Joe
(Brunei)

i liked this girl since we were little kids, all i wanted was for her to be happy. to me she was the most beautiful girl i've ever seen.

but i let her slip through my fingers. we were very close back then.. i came to school everyday just to see her. when we were 11, she wanted to be my girlfriend. i was not sure what to do.. so i accidentally rejected her.

she cried and ran away from me. when i saw her tears running down her face, my heart ached. it was close to school holidays. she didn't come to school till holidays started. it also began to rain. the raindrops remind me of her tears. till now every time it rains, i always picture her in my mind.

we never talked ever since. after 4 years, i still think about her every then and now. i'd pray that i'd meet her somewhere. one day i did meet her, so we chatted for a while, exchanging phone numbers, also reminisced about our past. after a few months we got to know each other again. i asked her to be my girlfriend.. she said okay.

and then she never talked to me about it. she pretended that nothing ever happened. turned out she had a boyfriend long before we started chatting or anything. she never told me. but you know... i couldn't be mad at her cause all i ever wanted was for her to be happy and now she is.

just without me.

i deserve it. i am sorry, N.