I'm such an idiot

by Sarah
(South Carolina)

I met this dude at the lake this summer. We talked a little, and I got his number. When we got home, me and my friend called him. I was scared like I don't know what.

I almost didn't do it, but the second I heard his voice, all my worries and problems disappeared. I knew he had a girlfriend, but I kept talking to him.

We talked every night for almost a month. He broke up with his girlfriend saying that it just wasn't working for him. Me, being my stupid little self, began to hope. I knew it wasn't going to go anywhere because he lives 30 minutes away from me, but I couldn't help but hope.

Eventually I told him I liked him, and he said that was cool, but he didn't like me like that. I was just happy that he was still talking to me. We kept talking, and I knew that I had fallen in love with him.

He has a girlfriend now, and I don't know what to do with myself. I can't stop thinking about him. Every song I hear on the radio makes me think of him, even it has nothing to do with anything. I read his name, I hear his name, I think of him, and I smile. My heart smiles, and I am happy. I can be in the worst mood ever, but if I even talk to him for 5 seconds, everything is better. All my problems disappear, and I feel as light as a feather.

I don't know what to do anymore. I can't get that boy out of my head or my heart. I need some MAJOR help here. I don't know whether to hang on to him and hope for the best, or just give up now. Please help me by posting some helpful comments.