Is It Worth Loving You?

by Jade
(california)

It's hard to keep loving you when all the time and silence is pushing us apart.

I try to be patient with all this waiting, but I'm not sure about anything anymore.

This waiting is unbearable and it's driving me insane and brings a sadness that I never want to feel again.

I never thought that I'd feel this way with you ... and it's breaking my heart.

I feel as if I must touch that blade to my skin to feel better ... but I try not to.

I try not to bring back my past when my future should be so bright ...

Going back in time is more painful than anything.

But I guess that's the price I paid for loving you.

It's just a game of waiting and that is a loss I did not want.