Just One Guy
by Court
I have fallen so in love with this man :(. We first started seeing each other a little over a year ago and I thought things were going to be wonderful, but I was wrong. After a few months of us keeping our relationship a secret, I finally got tired of it and asked him why? His reply was his family didn't think him and I being togeather was a good idea (I am 5 years older than him and also have 2 amazing little girls). So I said nothing and just kept on being his secret. After a short time, I think your heart gets tired of wanting and not receiving so I have just recently given up and broken it off. I haven't hurt like this in such a long time and don't know how to handle it. But the sad part is a year of my life is gone and I now have a hole that I worry won't be filled for a long time. I love this man with my whole heart and soul and would have done anything to be his. There comes a point in your life that you have to sit back and think what's the best thing for you and at the moment, he is not it. I will never stop loving him and will never give up on him. but at the moment we just can't be "friends" cause every time I see him, my breath is taken away. I love everything about him, his smile, the way he held me, even the way he'd breathe on the back of my neck when we slept. It's amazing how one person can come into your life and change it so much in the blink of an eye. I will never regret him and I wish him all the happiness in the world. As for me, I pick myself up and move on ... I have 2 of the most important reasons to do this. |