Lies and Love

by Jonathan Bell
(Orange, CA)

I met Tracy through my friend Alex at a party a few nights after returning home after a long hiatus.

I had instant sparks for Tracy. In under a week, I made my intentions known for her.

I did little romantic things for her, like bring her pizza while she was home sick.

We started into a relationship after a week, then rushed into deeper feelings, throwing out I love you's.

After only a month, Tracy called the whole thing off, because of lack of time on her part and because in her opinion, I had a lot of growth to go through.

Then were were just friends.

Later, right when we start dating again—just dating nothing serious—
a lie that I told my friends back in the day about how I said that I slept with some chick, just some macho guy bullshit thing came back to me. I lied to seem cool or something.

My friend Alex and Tracy have had some tension between them for some time, so they decided to sit it out and have a talk to clear the air...well in this talk my friend decides to tell her everything about me...like everything he feels she doesn't know about me...not sure why, I'm sure he had good...or at least no scandalous intentions.

But he tells her things...and gets a lot of things wrong...or out of context....
tells her about the girl he thinks I slept with and that freaks her out!
She thinks everything has been a lie...or that can't be trusted.

Now, she won't even talk to me and I've had to confess to my friends what I lied and about a few other white lies....

Now I have no friends and my girl is gone...

EPIC FAILURE.

I love her, but I just don't seem to be meant for her.