love hurts

by kelsey
(tennessee)

me and him

Randy and I met through one of my friends. We finally started to go out and we've been together for 6 months today. And we lost our virginity to each other. Everyone told me that he wasn't right for me, and that I needed to end it. Even my family is against it.

But I'm in LOVE with him. He has hurt me numerous times, making me stop doing whatever he wants me to stop doing. But he changed for me: he stopped drugs, drinking, and got a job and his car back, so I figured it went both ways.

Four and a half months into our relationship, he said we needed a break and I begged for him back, and my momma told me there was probably another girl in his life. She was right, of course, but he realized he wanted me and I took him back like a dummy.

Then at 5 months, I let him borrow my laptop over night and he went through all of my stuff and the next morning he called me and started calling me all these nasty names from stuff that happened 3 years ago.

I broke up with him, and my mom said that I was never allowed to speak to him again, but he was begging for me back and said he will never do that to me again and promised he would change, so I gave him another chance.

Last night, I was hanging with him behind my mom's back, and we went to the lake. We were chilling and he was texting his friend about going to a party and there was drinking and girls there and he knew I couldnt go, but he put this guilt trip thing on me: "You always listen to your dumbass mom. She's a druggie, you need to come with me and if you can't, then I'm dropping you off now and I'm going by myself."

I didnt go and he went. I gave him the choice, either to be with me or to go to that party. And he chose the dumb party. So now we're done.

I was texting his mom today and she was telling me that I need to trust him. I'm not going to trust someone who has done so much damage to my heart. I'm done with all of this. I deserve so much better. I never thought I would be here in this position.

I don't regret loving him. It's just another lesson learned.

Always remember: don't allow someone to treat you like that.