Love - I know what it means...
by Sandeep
Sex was not on the mind but yes, being close and affectionate was always very nice a feeling to have. What was Love? Didn't have a clue! What was Commitment? Didn't ever think about it! All I knew was there should be a nice, cute, beautiful girl to be with. All classmates or friends should at least have a girl in mind when they talk to me. And i wanted to feel proud of having not just a girlfriend but girlfriends. So there I was, moving on with every class and year of my life, busy making new girlfriends and loving each and every one with my heart and mind. Of course, it was very difficult telling each one respectively that, "You're the only one." My friends used to ask me if I really love them all; to which my answer would be, Yes, you got it - "Of course, I do"... You can imagine at that teen-age who really cared about 'real love'...what I did and how I did was, for me, Real Love... to hell with whatever others thought or imagined. But one day, I met a girl. She came to my place and during the days gone by she knew what a kind of life I was leading, girls and friends in particular. She had a different look, a different view of life, some very different from other girls. I hated her for being so confident that she would not fall for me. Even though I knew I could woo her, I really never tried to win her attraction, not because I feared failure but maybe because I wanted her to win over my over-confidence. She ignored me big-time; She didn't even look at me if I stood in front of her. Unlike all my school girlfriends and other friends, she actually treated me like a Phantom...just couldn't see me around. And O started hating her for that...we would end up fighting, arguing, letting each other down and often making faces the moment we saw each other. After 1 month of hatred, I went for a vacation, but somehow that girl had already made a big cozy home in my heart. I started missing her like crazy. I called her up and cut short my vacation because I was so desperate to see her face... that day all the hatred turned into love - YES! Love, that was love... not because I wanted to be with her, but because I could not be without her. I proposed her for marriage in the following week...that was year 1995...had a courtship of 5 years... And yes, the D-Day came in 1999 when we got married and are growing stronger and stronger in our relation and are happily married for more than 11 years now... I love my girlfriend, now my wife because she's my better half, she completes me and I cannot imagine being without her. She is everything to me. Even though we fight and argue to this date, don't speak to each other for even a couple of days...I stop eating food cooked by her, don't go anywhere with her for the entire week...but all makes our bond stronger, deeper and sweeter. Love every part of my relation with her...She's my life and has given me the best gift she could have: a smart son. I love her from the core of my heart. Learn the skills that will keep your love passionate and make your relationship into the love of a lifetime |