Love is .........??

by MI AMOR
(MALAYSIA)

Though I'm going to be 40, it seems the heart never grows old.

I wonder how many of us in this stage are still wondering about Love.

I'm divorced for 2 years and I met a guy who I really fell for, but we never had a serious relationship, I mean, no sex. We spend so much of our time on the phone & sms goes out seldom but I do LOVE him. And something went wrong: he got jealous about my ex who still wants me back and still begging me back..

Then time has swiftly passed and I met another guy who I consider a funny and entertaining guy. He is not handsome, just charming by his own wits. I'm not sure if I do love him but if he is far and not calling me I'm feeling weak and sad..but I know I don't have a love like what I feel to my first boyfriend.

He is so much different from all the guys I met. he is so thoughtful in every way from A to Z.
Now he is trying to tell me that he is going to be 30 and he wants to marry already. He is younger than me by 10 years.

I'm scared I cannot give him children which he tries to tell me at least he wants 2 or 3 children of his own. I myself have one.

Now my problem is my ex hubby and my first boyfriend is now trying to call me and win me back. Actually, my boyfriend loves me but he has a lack of understanding.

I am now very confused. Please give me some advice or share your experience so I can have some good ideas.