Love is not to be understood.
by roel kr
When I heard your voice on the telephone I fell right in love. You where that angel I always looked for in my life. Then when we meet each other I fell in love again and I thought to myself, how can it be this angel of light will choose me? Then I walked with you and I felt alive again. You just made a man so happy I thought it will be forever. Then one day you said to me, I love you but I do love someone else. It struck me as lightning right through my heart. Even then I loved you still, as much. You love two men, and even then I will not give up. You are my everything and still I want to die for you. Why? I can not say, only you have my heart and I never want it back. Then I wait till I blow out my last breath, Than to give you up, and the pain in my heart is there when you are with him and not with me. When I hear your voice I am happy again, when I see you I want to make you smile. Then when you go back to him, I am happy for you and I smile and say I will see you about a few weeks. You do not see how I am hurt inside, it's because I said it is alright, we will just have fun together and we just see how it goes. I feel the pain in my heart when I think about when I will die. And my heart says....WHY? I am always listening to my heart. I am just in the waiting room, waiting for what may never will be. I want you in my life, maybe we will always be friends. But still my heart feels more then that, scared to let you go. You will not let go of me and I won't let go of you. You can't let go of him. So we are stuck in this love for each other. And the day to be together will never come, I don't mind because I love you always. I just pray to let the pain go away, I can't live without you and I never will. Till death do us part, even then my love energies will flow in space and time and I will find you again; that's how strong my love is for you. |
