Love Like This

by Stephanie.
(Maiden, NC, USA)

When you've known and liked someone for 8 years, all you really want is to have that one chance. You want to be the girl he loves, and the girl he talks about. I didn't want to just be best friends anymore, I wanted to be more than that. I thought I knew who he was, I thought I could trust him and give my all to the relationship. I wanted him to be the one who I would stay with ... I wanted him to be the one I could call my love and my baby.

The last thing I thought I'd have to ever worry about was him cheating or playing me. But that should have been at the TOP of my list. I found out that he had been talking to his ex girlfriend and this other girl. But I guess I should have seen it coming because he'd been going back and forth between us for a while.

It wasn't his cheating that hurt me as much as the lies he told: that he loved me and wanted to be with me forever. He said he'd told the other girls that he didn't want to be with them, and he promised ME he didn't want to be with them and that he would never break up with me.

But the next thing I know he's going out with the other girl, leaving me with nothing but pain and heartbreak ... nothing but lies and memories. What sucks is that I really wanted it to work, because he's someone I've liked since I was a kid, someone who I used to dream about. And then there's all the things he told me and all that I gave up to be with him.

I don't think he understands how much damage he's caused, because to him love is a game, even though he knew I believed in the real thing.

His promises were as easy to make as they were to break.

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