Love/Hate Relationship

by Jasmine.

He was the love of my life. Things were going great until our relationship hit 3 months. Then things got rocky, but we got through it.

Five months later, it got worse. We broke up 4 times in 2 weeks. He told me that he didn't love me and didn't want to be with me anymore.

But when we broke up, he wanted me more than ever. So my "not thinking self" took him back every time.

One day, I found out that he had told another girl that he wanted to be with her and that he loved and missed her. This happened just two days before our 9 month anniversary.

We broke up for one week but talked as if we were still together. He asked me back out and said he was truly sorry.

I took him back and now, I wonder if I made the right decision because I hate him more than anything for what he did and for breaking my heart 4 times. But then again I love him more than anything.

What do I do?