Loving her is killing me, but she makes me happy.

I like to think about you every so often.
when I'm feeling sad and alone.
I think about the time we held hands on our walk around town,
truck drove, and at first you cared then we went with the flow.
or the time I told you I liked you
my friend saw your face blush before you even came outside to talk to me.
your hugs were the best, your laugh calmed me down, your smile made me happy.
but then even I know, I lost my chance, when she asked you out.
it hurt me so badly, I felt like dying, but then again i never took the chance.
so i was there, trying my hardest to see you happy.
then when you stop your relationship with her, everything changed more.
you stop talking to me, you stop everything with me.
we still talk every now and then, but it wasn't like before.
now I'm trying my hardest to forget you. not care about you.
but that makes me sad, alone somehow.
some times at night I'd sit alone in my room
wishing things would go back to normal.
but i know they wont. so i wont be seeing you for two months.
but while I'm gone, I'm going to be thinking about you, wondering if you okay.
you wont even know I'm gone, since you stop talking to me.

but just so you know.
I love you Sky.