Maybe I'm Just Stupid

that's totally NOT me

It was almost 2 years ago. I saw his face and knew...or thought...he was the one. During the year, he had a couple girlfriends on and off. It hurt, especially when he was sad.

My feelings for him were more than a crush. All I wanted was for him to be happy and I hoped he'd be happy with me. So I finally burst. I told him in a text message that I was going crazy for him about 7 months later. A couple days later, he said he didn't feel the same way. I was pretty cool with it.

He was happy with his perfect girlfriend. I told him it hurt though (it did a little) because I didn't want him to know that I liked him so much. I risked my feelings for his happiness.

It seems creepy now. I should have known that he wouldn't ever like me back.

One day, my parents moved me to a school district about 45 minutes away from his. He really didn't seem to care. I hated the new people and places. It was scary. I changed and became my own person very quickly.

I continue to talk to him once in a while and wonder if it was the old me he didn't love and if he would like the new me if he got to know me again.

I know maybe i should move on. i just cant though. He's too sweet and perfect. I wonder if there's something wrong with me. Maybe I'm just stupid. Yes, that's it: I'm stupid ;)

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