More Than A Friend, Not Quite a Girlfriend

(Manila)

Now, I had like 7 crushes before, but in the beginning of a new school year - BAM! - it hit me, another crush! I thought it would end up like any other of my old crushes, I say hi, we become friends, he gets a crush on another girl and the rest is history...but this time, it was different.

I never felt such a strong connection before, above all the crushes I ever had, I never had such a strong connection with someone. We are like best friends, we know everything about each other. We sit next to each other in class and stuff too.

Though one day, the teacher switched our seats, and we lost touch, well, we talk every recess and online but I realized during class hours, he was talking to another girl, smiling and laughing, I blew it off, it was only fair to let him have other friends who are girls, right?

But then after a while, our hanging out time was getting less and less, I found out he was hanging out with "her."

Sometimes he's with her, other times with me, I don't know what to think anymore ... does he like me, or are we just best friends? I see him sneaking a peak at me like all the time, poking me and complimenting me, but he does to that to her too.

Then, I got crazy, my grades dropped a bit and my head's always in the clouds (well, my head is always in the clouds, but this time it's different).

This was the strongest crush I ever had, and not to mention the strongest pierce I ever had. It's as if Cupid's Arrow has broken my heart...

We still talk a lot, but, I can't put out the fact that he might have a crush on "her". I'm kind of a jealous-type.

Dedicated to: Vince