my bestfriend

by razorbladekisses
(milaca mn)

my best friend,
she's hurting herself,
she won't stop,
it tears me apart,
but she doesn't listen,
she doesn't know how bad it kills me,
doesn't know how this affects me,
doesn't know how she's gonna end up,
doesn't know how i feel,
doesn't know how much i wanna hold her tight,
& say everything's gunna be alright,
doesn't know how bad i wanna help,
but she's not here,
and even if she was,
she still wouldn't listen,
she says she loves the pain,
but i hate seeing or even hearing she's in pain,
it makes me insane,
it makes me cry for her,
she doesn't know she's one of the reasons i haven't committed suicide.