My boyfriend and I

by Hannah
(United states)

M boyfriend and I have been going out for 10 months now and I don't know if i want to be with him anymore. I still love him but we got in an argument yesterday and it tore me apart. I was thinking about him and how I treat him. I want him to one day leave me, I cant explain why, but I do. And I do think about us breaking up, I do then, I don't. I want to kiss him, then I just want to push him away. I constantly make him mad and I want him to have the best girlfriend he can ever ask for. Someone who can treat him right, but I tell him this and he says I'm the one for him and I do treat him right. I really don't believe that, but I want too. I'm just all screwed up right now and I don't know if I should stay or go. Just so many things that are going on with me I don't know if I really can be with him. Please help me!